Day 12

 

At the risk of setting them off again, the phone calls from 'publishers' have stopped. It's now been over a week since the last one. Well, some I can't identify. The last one from Toronto is a mystery. Not sure, but cessation seems curiously timed with a recent phone convo containing a lot of personal POV chat.

A couple nights ago Scott had to wake me up from a nightmare with spiders on me, I was trying to say "Kill it! Kill it!" in my sleep. My spider dreams are rare but seem to show up around the time I experience other astral-esque lucid events. They 'crawl' me like webcrawlers crawl the internet, perhaps. I've been refusing to play along with certain manipulative attempts lately, which is a tricky balance because then the nightmares come.

I'd love to talk about how my head actually works chemically, maybe one day I'll just flat spill. I'm easy to take advantage of but not that easy to own, does that make sense? I seem to attract a lot of weird synchronous activity, including a continual barrage of astral, which I'm not inclined to talk about, and I think my brain chemistry must be sugar. Those who understand know I'm a feeding station. It's aways been hard living like this, but it's made me really strong.

Yeah, I know, right. Really thought someone would jump on the Trump time travel stuff after that FBI raid, but it's just lost in the noise. 

Although, I do get some very interesting numbers in my analytics... 

I had the star map in my purse.

I don't think electric guitars were invented in all of our timelines. Sometimes I wind up in an alt world in my dreams and one in particular seems to have a lot of harpsichord music. I very rarely listen to that when I'm awake here, so it stands out when I'm coming out of those dreams.

Randomly writing between sleeping stints.

Looks like a busy day coming. Skating with kiddo, making homemade ice cream, likely more battleship challenges during a sleepover. Still holding my own on the 21 days of fasting, but I did break out last night and ate a full helping of a ham and cheese hotdish recipe I tried out, which was very lovely. I'm sure I'll need that for skating today. Don't want to be dumb and collapse on the rink.

Shared this on twitter yesterday. Not too shabby so far.

Definitely worth watching.